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Just a Walk

So, it’s no secret I haven’t been working out lately.

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But yesterday, I forced myself to take a walk. Just a walk.

No strings attached.  It wasn’t a workout, it wasn’t anything – just some time outside with good tunes, sunshine, and a slice of nature.

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If you could still call this nature, right in the middle of one of the biggest cities in the country.  But I do.  Because it had the same effect.

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It was strangely freeing, even though I wasn’t really disconnected (still had my phone and camera and music).  I was just out there.

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It gave me just the right amount of motivation and energy – much like a really good workout should.

Who knows, that little walk may have inspired me to get back to real workouts ;-).

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I got my food prep done for the week – this plus some tofu, chopped veggies, and some protein thin mints.

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and played with my new toy! Oh I’m such a sucker for gadgets.

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I’d say it was a pretty productive day.

Not every ‘workout’ has to make you sweat.  It could be just a walk in the park to clear your head.

Do you take walks? Do you find them relaxing?

The Great Meat Debate

Those of you who have known me for the past few years (or have been reading the blog since I started) my have noticed something different around here:

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A little back story – I was never fully vegetarian or vegan.  However, for the past 3 or so years, I’ve eaten primarily a vegetarian, and dairy-free diet.

Actually, I take that back – mostly pescetarian and dairy free.

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I love my seafood, so even through all my “i’m gonna be super healthy and cut out all meat and dairy from my diet” days, I always kept eating fish (and eggs, although I cut those out for a while too).

Also, I would eat some meat when other people made it for me, and when I knew the source.  Organic if possible, please.  But these occasions only happened a few times per year – well, until now.

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So what gives? In short, my body wanted it.

Over the past few years, I’ve gone through lots of ups and down in weight, highs and lows, and over the past few months, I’ve noticed a pattern.  After a few days, exclusively vegetarian meals failed to keep me satisfied.  Even a new recipe or larger portion of vegetarian protein wouldn’t do the trick.

Without fail, I would go back for more food, and eat so many veggies, beans, and legumes, so much fiber that I would end the day hugely bloated, uncomfortable, and still unsatisfied.  Full, but still in need.

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So I gave in.

I bought meat to cook for myself (as much as I hate handling it raw!).  Yes, I splurged for organic or grass-fed as much as I can.  After all I’ve learned about the food industry, if I have the choice of organic or conventional (even labeled all-natural), I’m going organic.  No nasty chemicals in my food if I can avoid it.

To be honest, I’m still not entirely okay with eating meat.  I’ll spare you the details of what goes on in my head, but I’m learning to be okay with the fact that I’m eating right for my body.

How do I know this?  The other day, I was thinking back to how I used to eat before I started thinking too much about food, and I remembered that there was a period of time when I wanted steak for dinner multiple days in a row.  And I would eat it too.  I was a major meat lover, and probably at my smallest.  So yes, things have changed, bodies change over the years, but I’ve been feeling pretty good lately.

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I’m sleeping better, I’m staying full for longer, have more energy (for every day and for workouts), and am less bloated.

I would say I still eat about 75% vegetarian, and almost completely dairy free (my stomach doesn’t like dairy).  But I’ve now added some chicken, turkey, and occasionally, beef into my meals a few days a week.

So there you have it.  It’s still and internal ethical issue for me, but I’m trying this out for a while, in the hopes that my body responds well.

Do you eat meat?  Do the ethics or environmental impacts of it bother you?

Were you ever vegetarian and found yourself craving animal protein? 

Journey Into Unknown – The Transition Phase

For the first time in 18 or so years, I’m not going back to school this year.  It’s freakin’ weird.

I graduated back in May, and have meant to write about my experience since.  Truth is, it’s been hard.  College. Graduating. The world beyond.  I wanted a little perspective, I wanted some time to think and reflect on my college experience, but that has not done me too much good.

Now don’t get me wrong – overall I did not have a bad college experience.  I truly enjoyed living in what I now consider the best area in one of the world’s greatest cities.  I made some amazing friends, had some great nights, and some nights that I would rather not remember.

But school was no walk in the park for me.  I chose to study Physics – because it fascinates me.  No, I’m not a genius. Math and science are not second nature to me like they were for a good chunk of people in my program.  I had to work hard. Many Friday nights (and other nights) were spent at the Physics building until 2am or later working on homework assignments.  Most Saturdays were spent just recovering from difficult weeks, and Sundays were homework days.

Yes, I got to explore NYC.  Yes, I had some fun with friends.  But mostly I worked.  And when I wasn’t working, I stressed about all the shit I had to get done.

So I could not be more relieved that I’m not going back to school this year.

In waiting to write this post, I hoped I could say that it was all sunshine and rainbows at this point.  I hoped I could tell you about my shiny new job, shiny new apartment, and shiny new real-person life.  Three plus months later, I’m still in the transition phase.

And it’s still hard.  I have a full-time “job”, it’s called job searching.  And it’s not glamourous.  It tests your resolve, motivation, and self-confidence daily.  There are moments when I just want to give up, when I wish I could have someone else plan my life for me.  Hello, the world doesn’t work that way.

The unknown is scary.  Probably the scariest thing out there.

Few people get their careers and future handed to them on a silver platter.  Most of us have to work for what we want, and work hard.  It can be exhausting, but eventually, it will be worth it.  I’m only 22, and have a whole life ahead of me.  I know I will eventually find a job, I know I will eventually settle into some kind of life and career.

I’m glad I’m not going back to school, but the reality of life is that it still takes hard work.  But the good thing about hard work, is that it almost always pays off.

What keeps you motivated in difficult transition phases? Share your stories!

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