Well, I seem to have done it again – taken an extended multiple-week-long break from the blog. I’ve been doing this quite often over the past year and a half or so, and basically here’s why.
I have been purposely avoiding sharing too much of my life on the blog. I wanted to step away from the “share everything” style that I started this blog with, because I got too caught up in it. So I stepped far far away, and while I did continue to blog every now and then, I wasn’t really being consistent.
And my blog was (well, kind of is) lacking in personality and relatability. Which is so hypocritical of me, given that I only really like to read other blogs that throw in a bit of personal stuff.
I have been very hesitant to open up on the blog, because I wanted to step away from the internet world and immerse myself in real life more. There were many times when I even considered just quitting the blog world, but something has always drawn me back. I want to focus on being present and being with the people around me, But to be perfectly honest, it hasn’t worked very well.
I have been busy, but there hasn’t been a lot going on in my life. After graduation, many of my friends left the city. I moved away from the city center, and and have been job searching full time. I’m not trying to throw a pity party for myself here, but times have been better.
And I need an outlet. I need a place to talk about things that I have trouble telling people face to face. Yet for some reason, I have no qualms about telling the whole internet. I need a place to vent about the little things that I love, and about my continuous struggles with food.
Basically, I need to get back to the reasons I started this blog. For me. To share my stories and lessons I’ve learned from them. To satisfy my need to get my food-related thoughts out of my head, even if nobody reads them.
Sure, I’ll probably get back to commenting a few blogs, being active on social media (because this I never really stopped), but I’m setting a limit, and sharing personal stories because I need to.
It’s all for me. I’m opening up for me.