[[be warned, this is a rather rant-y post. No, I’m not looking for a pity party, just venting]]
I hate this. This = being sick. I’ve been in a brain fog for 5 days now, with one thing or another preventing my from going about my normal activities. Head, throat, nose, no voice – fun stuff I tell you.
Even food doesn’t sound good. Except juicy fruit, tea, and soup. The idea of coffee makes me shudder, and I have lost all taste for my usual fresh foods. That’s how you know I’m really not feeling like myself.
I want to run, lift and do yoga, but I just feel tired and my body feels heavy. (I’m being overdramatic, I know) I’ve completely fallen off the workout train, and haven’t done anything besides walking and some light yoga/stretching since Tuesday. And it makes me feel disgusting.
I want to go out and enjoy the sunshine, but every time I step outside makes me feel worse. I tried a short workout and just had no energy to complete it. Every day I sit down to do work but just stare at it. I have so much homework to get done, but no motivation or concentration.
So I rested. Drank lots of tea and soup, chilled on the couch, hoping my body would take the hint. But, no dice.
Part of this is me making excuses because I don’t want to do work, but I really hate feeling like this. It’s almost as if my body is controlling me. I’m one of those people who pride myself on rarely getting sick, and then when I do, never take meds for it. Today, I caved. I need to be a normal, functioning human being again!!
I don’t know if I’m waiting for some kind miracle or epiphany, but I more than anything else, I want to go home to my family for thanksgiving next week, happy and healthy, and be able to spend time with them without having to worry too much about the amount of work I need to get done.
Is that so much to ask? Come on body, let’s kick this healing thing into high gear!
How do you motivate yourself to get things done when feeling under the weather?