[[heads up – long, ramble, no-photo post]]
To be perfectly honest, my habits have been pretty off since the weekend. I haven’t had time for my Best Body Bootcamp workouts. I’ve only worked out once, and even then it was half-assed. My eating has been way off because I haven’t had any time to cook, and I don’t have any healthy things on hand. I’ve relied way too much on packaged foods. I feel gross and bloated and out of it.
But the reality is, these weeks are going to happen. There are going to be times when I’m too mentally exhausted to cook or go to the gym – even though I know these things make me feel so much better.
You would think that having everything planned out would make life easier. That being on a fitness plan would take one piece out of the equation – but the plan is the problem. I’m not good at being flexible. I’ve been working on this, really trying hard to let myself off once in a while. But there’s the other problem – I have to be mentally prepared to do so.
I have to prepare myself to be flexible? It sounds crazy. It makes me feel silly that I have to tell myself that it’s okay not to follow the plan. It makes me feel ridiculous that I have remind myself that life gets in the way, and that it’s okay to let go of a few things once in a while.
It’s okay to take a load off my mind. In fact, it’s necessary.
For some reason, this time around, I thought I could handle it. Despite that it’s been months since I’ve had a schedule this demanding, I thought I could do it all. That I could take on the start of school, work, and have ample time for the gym, groceries, cleaning, organizing, homework, emails, etc.
Earth to Rachel – you’re only human!
I can’t do everything. Even if I wanted to, I shouldn’t have to. Life is about balance. Compromise. It’s about knowing when to push through and when to let go. Letting go is hard, but it must be done now and then.
I finally had this little revelation last night. My plan yesterday was to get right to the gym after class, and get back on track with my boot camp workouts. But instead, I got home, was wiped out and hungry, and stuffed my face with nut butter and popcorn. So much for the plan. Of course I freaked out for letting myself over-indulge. But the fact was, it was done. And all I could do was move on.
So instead of pumping iron or doing a high intensity “stress relieving” workout, I decided to take the other route – to relax my mind, instead of going hard. So I went to yoga class at Strala to relax – and it was fabulous.
Was it what I needed? I don’t know. I still feel like I need to let out some energy. But it did put my mind at ease for the moment, which something I need to do more of. I need to learn how to relax wherever and whenever, especially when I don’t have time for physical stress release.
So I’m going to try. I’m going to plan, but not beat myself up if I don’t stick to it. I’m going to breathe. Relax. and take try to take things one at a time.
How do you deal with stress when you have no time?
Happy weekend, everyone <3